from a moment there ,,
i thought that i could get past you and what we had.
the time were we laughed endlessly.
could you be more than that?
i have been in deep grief
my agony is unrelenting
i am not as resilient as i appear to be.
i wish i was in movies,
were i could end the pain with just a cut.
and people around me would give a round of applause at every detailed price.
i wish you were a dream, or perhaps a nightmare i could get past with every fluttering of my eyes.
but you have been mine.
and i have loved you more than life.
i could trade my soul just to hold you once again,
but it seems too unreal.
and i have to keep my sanity with bare hands.
i couldnt get past the thought of you and her,
where i held you with great care,
and i wanted you back.
if you only knew how great in pain i am in.
i have lost my flavor in wanting another,
that i kept my focus on the heavens, and those hands who reached out to help me.
i want you more than life itself,
and you brushed me aside like a dust in labels.
the moment you took me out,
the rising of every breath,
i cried and hid every tear.
i have masked myself,
i have fooled the world,
i have fooled you.
